Reaching From Mental Illness to Mental Health

Many weeks ago, in commenting back and forth with fellow blogger Dawn Liz Jones, she challenged me with:

I would be interested to know why or in what ways it is hard to reach from mental illness to mental health. I know for me, it was definitely hard work, with God’s help and grace. Only if you’re ever willing to share. Would make a very helpful and insightful post. – dawnlizjones

Be sure to check out her blog – great Bible insights and personal stories – Inspiration with an Attitude!

How can I reach from mental illness to mental health? Why is it hard?

A major part of my struggle in reaching toward mental health is that health feels gradual, and my descent into mental illness – particularly Major Depressive Disorder with some anxiety – felt very sudden. Looking back on it, it wasn’t sudden; it was a slow decline over many months. But it was life changing for me. It’s easy to spot the negative, to see the low points – my hospitalization was a huge “defining moment” – and to focus on the illness part of my diagnosis. In many ways, I’ve allowed depression to define me, to become part of my identity. I have life before depression, the diagnosis and later hospitalization, and then the “ever since.”

My therapist Ted always wanted me to speak of depression as a different entity, not a part of me but separate, and name the friends depression brought with it (ie, anxiety, loneliness, negative self-talk). He wanted me to see that this was not me, not part of who I am, but instead an unwanted outsider who desired to take over my thoughts and emotions.

That’s great to say, and much harder to put into practice. My depressive episodes – for over 8 years now – are part of my lifetime experiences, and they help shape me. Whether I should or not, I define myself by them. I identify myself as a Christ follower who struggles with depression, may have it all of my life, and so am learning to live with it. That means recognizing my symptoms, my markers, and my triggers and responding appropriately to keep depression away as much as possible.

My mental health is not easy to define except as the absence of mental illness. Illness is much easier to name – depression and anxiety. So health must mean something different, or I will never again be mentally healthy, since I see myself as one who struggles with mental illness.

For me, then, mental health is more about learning how to live in the better moments of my illness or when symptoms have subsided and when I’m in remission, like now. Health also means learning to recognize those steps I can take that help with it – eating well, exercising, getting enough sleep, following my treatment plan. Finally, health means recognizing signs that show something might be awry, that depression is fighting for a way in again. Recognizing those markers and triggers can help me take other steps needed to keep it away – giving myself permission to do less and rest more, bumping up my exercise, being more forgiving of myself and more gentle with myself in my own thoughts.

There’s another piece too, and that’s reminding myself to see me the way God sees me. He doesn’t define me as mentally ill. He defines me as His adopted daughter, His precious child, wholly and dearly loved, forgiven. Walking in this world with its troubles, but walking with His Holy Spirit as my Guide. Not alone. Not a mess. But beautiful in His eyes.

The awareness ribbon color for mental health is lime green, for depression it is green, and for mental illness it’s gray. Into the first few years of my depression diagnosis, I had my good friend Carol make a bracelet for me, a mixture of green and lime green stones – it is beautiful. I wore it proudly, as a reminder and hopefully a conversation starter about mental health and depression awareness. But then a few years later I read someone’s comment about the need to bring attention to mental illness, not specifically mental health, because mental illness is the taboo topic. I thought on that a long time, and it makes a lot of sense to me. We can talk about mental health, but that isn’t the issue – mental illness is. So I asked Carol to make another beautiful bracelet – this one is gray for mental illness awareness. I wear it a lot.


And they look good together, too.

8 thoughts on “Reaching From Mental Illness to Mental Health

  1. Juni Desireé January 18, 2016 / 4:41 pm

    Love this. Thank you for sharing your beautiful honest words. It’s given me some things to think about. And those bracelets are really cool.

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  2. gail burns January 18, 2016 / 9:13 am

    For me, I have always chosen light blue for wisdom and understanding, medium blue for power and control. Also green for life giving energy. I do believe in colors as they help me identify my moods. When I don’t want to feel I wear black. I also use brown, grey and tan the colors for grounding myself, or getting back to Mother Earth. When I am in a depressive mood I tend to go with darker colors. When I feel spiritual I wear white, silver off whites. When I need/feel compassion I wear reds and oranges. The pastel colors are a mix with either spirituality or a touch of earth, understanding etc. No matter how we color our moods/world depression has many parts just like the color wheel. Once I discovered when I wear certain colors and my moods then it was like a pattern I needed to follow.

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    • peggyricewi January 18, 2016 / 9:20 am

      Good to hear from you, Gail. Hope you are well!


  3. dawnlizjones January 17, 2016 / 9:17 pm

    Peggy, how kind of you to mention my questions! And what a great and productive essay! Your strategies are measurable, practical, and “do-able” in so many different ways. I continue to pray for your healing, as you requested, and wondering about your church visiting–have you found a home church?

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    • peggyricewi January 17, 2016 / 9:21 pm

      We have been to one church consistently, so I guess we call it “home.” I just began an ecumenical Bible Study, which will also give me a sense of community. I admit, I forgot how long this process of connecting with other believers can take (10.5 months and counting)!

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