I’m not sure yet…

As my previous post indicated, the doctor added a new medication – Rexulti – to my antidepressants cocktail. I started 3 weeks ago, for 2 weeks at 0.5 mg, then this week at 1.0 mg, and up to 2.0 mg before I see him in a couple of weeks. And he said that if I feel better at the 1.0 mg level, I can stay there.

But how can I tell? I’ve been having such a good time!

My kids have been here – my daughter last week and my son stayed on another week, so my days have been full of family and laughter. We had a wonderful Christmas Day, and my son’s birthday, and all the days surrounding. We saw the new Star Wars movie, played games, watched movies and shows on Netflix. We shopped a little, the guys went hiking on the Appalachian Trail, and we’ve eaten delicious food. We tried a brewery and a distillery. In my mood app, where I rate every day to keep track of mood trends, each day with my children here has been a 9. A 9! I usually live at a 6 or 7, so 9 is significant, especially for a full week.

So what happens when we all go back to normal? When my son leaves to go back north and my husband goes back to work and my days become just me and the cat? Where will my mood be?

The Bible reminds me not to worry about the future. That “each day has enough trouble of its own. (Matthew 6:34)” That “… neither the present nor the future, … will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. (Romans 8:38-39)” It’s only a waste of my present time to worry about how I’ll be feeling in a few weeks.

It will be a week and a half from the time my days get quieter until I see my doctor again. That should give me enough time to assess my mood and any effect of these new meds.

In the meantime, I’m really enjoying the moments!

Wishing you a Happy New Year – full of physical and emotional health!

11 thoughts on “I’m not sure yet…

  1. kbailey374 January 11, 2018 / 10:33 am

    I hear you! You don’t know when you are depressed if it’s the bad moments; you don’t know when you are better if it’s the good moments… lol. At least you have some time after they leave so you can figure it out. Problem is there will be some natural letdown after they do leave which will also affect your mood.

    My Dr. also put me on Rexulti which didn’t really do a lot, so she added Cymbalta on top of it and the other 90 million meds I am on, sigh. I am doing better though so can’t complain.



    • peggyricewi January 11, 2018 / 1:15 pm

      Glad to hear you’re doing better!
      I just met with a new therapist – 2nd time – I like her. I see my psych doc Monday to talk meds. I know what you mean about 90 million. By the time I add in my Vitamins D and E and allergy pill, I’m taking a fistful each morning! But, if they’re working,…!

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    • peggyricewi January 13, 2018 / 8:18 am

      Funny how people respond differently to different meds. Cymbalta made me suicidal!


  2. Jane January 2, 2018 / 9:18 am

    Wonderful to hear about the kid’s visit! Thankful for the respite from the flat mood. Praying the medications take effect soon or can be tweaked again to find relief from the flatness. Love you! Hope to talk soon!

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    • peggyricewi January 2, 2018 / 9:23 am

      Love you too. Hope you’ve had wonderful Christmas and New Year’s.
      We take Jacob to the airport (in D.C.) tomorrow. Chris went back to work today.


  3. theapplesinmyorchard December 31, 2017 / 2:48 pm

    I think the difference is significant and, most likely, largely due to your wonderful holiday and family celebrations. I hope you share the difference in your activities/days/mood with your doctor. It might be hard to sort out but hopefully, the new med is working for you (along with the wonderful visits you have had). Happy New Year. Glad you are starting out on a positive note!

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    • peggyricewi December 31, 2017 / 3:44 pm

      I agree that my elevated mood is due to my kids! I’ll be sure to explain to the doc, and see if he can help me sort it out.
      Happy New Year to you!

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      • theapplesinmyorchard December 31, 2017 / 7:07 pm

        The house is so different when everyone is home. Our oldest was home for a week and left yesterday to return to school. For me, the change in dynamics is palpable, and sometimes hard to deal with when we all return to our daily lives. I am glad you could have a great visit.

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