Mid-night waking

It’s 2:27am on Friday morning as I start to write this. This is the third out of four nights I’ve been awake in the wee hours of the morning. And it happened a couple of nights/mornings last week, too.

It’s starting to feel like a pattern.

I wake up some time between 1-2am, and can be awake for 2-3 hours. Last night, I laid in bed for the whole time. Tonight, I tried to sleep for an hour before just getting up and having tea.

I remember having trouble with sleep when I was fighting off depression last time. I seem to fall asleep pretty quickly, but when I wake up in the middle of the night, I can’t get back to sleep. I know I’m not the only one in my family with this pattern, so perhaps it’s partly genetics. Maybe partly age – I hear insomnia is common in menopause. We could form a club and have 3am meetings! What’s on the agenda this morning, girls?!

When I’m lying in bed and trying to sleep, my body falls into the groove of the gel foam bed topper. A couple of times, I’ve gotten up because I can’t get comfortable – the gel won’t adapt quickly enough; I’m too hot (the ceiling fan is on); my back hurts. Or, I’m just awake. This morning, I think a bowl of Cheerios might ease my tummy growls.

I’m not feeling tired right now – I’m awake and alert. I’ve scrolled through my emails, read a devotional, added to my to-do list, and printed a journal. I like blogging in the quiet of the morning hours – this is often when I write.

I have a book to read for next week’s book club – I could start that. Or I could quietly watch Netflix. Or knit. I’m not quite sure what to do with myself in these very early hours of the day!

The cats aren’t sure what to make of me being up, either. Last night, I think they knew I was awake even though I was still in bed, and I could hear them running through the hallway and wrestling in the bedroom. They even pounced on me a couple of times, without waking my husband. This morning, they both blinked at me as I disturbed their quiet. At first, they moved around me slowly, like they weren’t sure that they wanted to be up. But as our early minutes have turned into an hour, they’ve played in the cardboard cat house and grabbed a quick bite of kibble. The kitten is searching for a toy to chase across the floor while the lady is following me from room to room. It seems they’re accepting my mid-night roaming around the house.

I’m starting to feel a little sleepy, so maybe I’ll go back to bed. The problem is that the sheets are now cold. I could just curl up here on the couch under the cozy new throw blanket.

It always surprises my husband when he finds me in the living room in the morning. When his alarm goes off, he gets up very quietly so as not to wake me, not even noticing that I’m not in the bed! Then he comes out for breakfast and flips on the lights, and I’m awake again. Sometimes, I crawl back into bed and other times I stay on the couch and listen to him rustle around the kitchen, making toast or eggs. Sometimes, if I’ve slept well on the couch, I get up and eat breakfast and start my day, too. But not usually. I’m typically still tired from the middle-of-the-night hours of being awake, and sleep calls to me as the rest of the day awakens.

9 thoughts on “Mid-night waking

  1. Carol February 10, 2019 / 6:30 am

    Read this twice now, Peg. The first was Friday afternow as I sat in Culver’s eating lunch. Thanks for the company! The second was right now. Fighting a little insomnia or maybe just early wakening tonight- related to undone job tasks! Oh, well. I can’t know everything as a new employee. Hope you’ve had some better sleep.

    Liked by 1 person

    • peggyricewi February 10, 2019 / 7:11 am

      Last night was better – the night before that was horrible. Hopefully I’ve broken the pattern!


    • peggyricewi February 10, 2019 / 7:22 am

      Play the “I’m new here” card as long as you can! Especially when answering phones -“So sorry if I disconnect you…” And take me to lunch anytime😀


  2. kbailey374 February 8, 2019 / 8:52 pm

    Just another sign of depression. I have been struggling with it lately and it was enough for me to tell my nurse pract. She increased one of my meds so we’ll see. Unfortunately, having bipolar, irregular sleep can lead to hypomania/mania or be a sign of that too. (not saying you are BP I’m just blabbing lol) Love you Peggy – hope all will be well soon.


    • peggyricewi February 8, 2019 / 9:11 pm

      I haven’t told the doc yet – am trying therapy first. But I don’t really like this new one (have seen him twice). My first psych doc told me I have a couple of markers for bipolar, but not full blown. And I’m fighting depression or grief, not sure which or both. Sucks.


      • kbailey374 February 8, 2019 / 9:18 pm

        ugh, life is full of excitement even when it’s depression which is not exciting lol

        Liked by 1 person

  3. Chris Rice February 8, 2019 / 12:25 pm

    You nailed it. I didn’t know you were on the couch this morning. I flipped on the lights and started making eggs AND toast.

    Liked by 1 person

    • peggyricewi February 8, 2019 / 12:32 pm

      That’s why I wanted you to read my blog this morning while you ate breakfast! I figured you’d find it funny😉


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